I didn’t sleep last night. I was already out of sorts, and then something unfortunate happened that really upset me, and then I was stuck.
See, I’ve had this problem for as long as I can remember: unless I am not merely tired but beyond exhausted, I can’t sleep if I’m upset. Really and truly can’t. You’d think I’d be motivated to escape my troubles, but somehow it doesn’t seem to work that way.
So, I got up, did some work on the dissertation proposal, and then tried going back to bed.
So — by now it was false dawn — I drove to the market to get breakfast things. Put the groceries away. Washed dishes. Went back to bed to try again.
Then my sweetie woke up, and we talked. I began to feel better, but by this time the sun was well and truly up.
Why am I still awake, anyway? I guess because I didn’t want to miss anything.
I did take a brief nap after breakfast, though. I stretched out on the couch, well within earshot of the rest of the family still conversing around the table.
The soothing sounds of people I love, talking among themselves — that did the trick. Feeling safe and companioned, I was finally able to let go. Of course, the purring cat perched on my chest was helpful, too.
So, I’m curious: when you have trouble sleeping, what helps you? I’d love to hear about it. I think I could use a few new strategies.